Real Life: Self Discovery?

Do you know who are you? Are you on a journey of self discovery?

I am preparing to immerse myself in an edit. Sarah Westcott from the Addendum Agency has come back to me with notes on how to improve my magnus opus ‘Looking For Mr Rabbit’. I am very excited. I am also nervous as the work load is enormous. The book will now be clearly influenced by Lewis Carroll’s Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. It was already as sections of the book were written as my alter-ago Alice but I will now draw out themes to create cohesive strands throughout the story telling.

The book will be divided into 3 sections:

Growing Up

Curiosity

Identity

Focus on key themes:

– Rules of Engagement

Etiquette
Equality

– Social Confusion

– How to be female

– Influence

– Family

Language & viewpoint

What we take for granted
What we need to question
How we talk it about
Communication
Freedom and confinement
Love

I am enjoying sharing this journey even; though it is unconventional because normally books are constructed as writer’s retreat into attics and offices and then by magic books appear, readers devour them greedily, or not; sometimes they ignore them. The writer’s journey is emotional and exhausting. The written word is fading. We want everything now, condensed into 40 characters, immediately consumable. But I want to weave a magical tale of journey and adventure of one girl’s pursuit of love. Looking For Mr Rabbit is about looking for love. Deep down we all want to be loved unconditionally. I love my children unconditionally. It consumes me. No matter how badly behaved they were I could not stop loving them. My children know they are loved and they take my love granted because it is so freely and readily available to them. I made them and they are of me. I would not have it any other way. I want them to know that I have their back. I am on their side. They can trust me to listen to them and to support them.

When my mother died I lost the one person who would have loved me unconditionally and this twist in my tale set me on a new path. It changed everything.

Looking for Mr Rabbit is the story of a lost, unloved child on a roller coaster adventure seeking love and trying to discover…. ‘who is she?’